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It’s ok to not be ok right now – A little note from Amanda
I won’t lie, it’s been a tough week.
A tough winter, really.
To be clear we’ve had bad years/seasons before. 2020 wasn’t the first, 2021 won’t be the last.
I’m not going anywhere. I’m going to keep being here, supporting my industry, my clients, and I’m proud and honoured that I get to.
But – real talk – I don’t want to right now.
I’m so so tired. So emotionally spent.
It’s felt like it’s been Groundhog Day for months; having the same conversations, crying the same tears (with different clients and vendors friends) about further postponements and planning uncertainty.
I’m struggling to find new energy for what seems to be the same problems again and again.
I so badly wish I had answers for us all. That we could all get back to celebrating, hugging, dancing, and just all that good stuff we’re missing right now.
But I don’t. And that alone – as a Planner – is SO hard. I’m usually the one with all the answers and guidance (COVID is a moving target in many ways!).
The whole reason I started my business – and keep doing it after almost 10 years – is because I want to help, support, and take off the stress and anxiety and get my clients back to a place of having fun planning their weddings.
It’s distressing that I can’t do that right now. Or really, I’m doing it on what seems like such a micro level.
I have many tools, tricks, and go-to’s for when I’m low. Truthfully, they’re all lacking right now. It’s like they’re spent too.
It’s hard to start the day fully charged (no matter how much Harry Styles listening, tea-drinking, doggo cuddles I start the workday with).
I’m sharing today just to share. I know we’re all struggling, some more than others.
I have immense gratitude for my support system, where I live in the world, and the privilege I have. I don’t take any of that for granted.
But I’m sharing it because I should.
I hope you’re doing ok and that you find grace and joy today.
